“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”
I’m finally starting to feel good! I showered standing up for the first time since surgery, I finally figured out how to do a fishtail braid and I’m into it, and I still have energy to do errands. Like all these things are great and I’m excited to feel almost myself again. In celebration I’ve decided to take myself to see catching fire finally, and then I realized Katniss wears a braid and have suddenly become self conscious about my hair choice accomplishment…
All season my fb has been quiet, but I log on tonight forgetting it was TWD midseason finale and boom major death spoiled. That’s what I get (I hate spoilers, but I also acknowledge the responsibility lies with me if I want to avoid them), but man I’m kinda disappointed. There weren’t any details, and it was a character I’ve been expecting for a while now, so I can still be shocked and sad when I watch tomorrow, but still. Spoilers bum me out.
I’m having a really hard time dealing with the fact I don’t feel better yet. Objectively I know wanting to feel better in two days is unrealistic, that they did a ton more work than anticipated, and that quitting the pain meds days early is going to make this process that much more difficult. But man, I just want to be able to lay in bed, and that’s probably still a day or two away. It’s hard and I’m frustrated.